You feel a lot when you’re the girl that’s always there for others. You have depths within you, a heart-filled ocean, and you continue to fall for people who are too afraid to swim. Tearing pieces of your paper soul into the smallest fragments just to set someone else on fire.
You’re hurting. My Gosh, you’re hurting. You ache, wondering if someone will ever give you the love you give to others so freely, wondering if there will come a time when someone asks how you’re doing, how you’re dealing with it, how you’re healing.
And you’re healing yourself when that doesn’t happen. In things other than people, you find strength. You find energy in your loneliness, in your daydreams you find hope. You’re building up, telling yourself you don’t need anyone to save you, you don’t need anyone to stabilize your foundation.
But do you…
See, sometimes the girl for everyone else who is always there needs somebody for her. The girl that smiles the biggest sometimes gets the biggest hurt. Sometimes the girl who is always the person who wipes other people’s tears goes home and shouts at lakes in the midnight hour. Sometimes it is necessary to tell the girl who encourages everyone around her that she is appreciated, that she matters; sometimes it is necessary to encourage herself.
So, know that your heart is rare if you’re the girl who’s always there for others. Know that you have the ability to calm people’s storms within you, a beautiful gift that has soothed sore eyes and hurt minds. Know that you are giving people hope, that you are inspiring them by recognizing what others most ignore in them, that you are making people feel wanted, that you are making people feel like they are intended.
Also remember that you’re not invincible, though. The rest for your heart is needed. You’ve got to rest. Remember that you don’t need to carry the world’s weight on your shoulders, so you won’t be able to save everyone, so you won’t be able to heal every hurt. Remember that you deserve to take all the energy you put into the world from time to time and reinvest it in yourself. That you are worthy of the love that you continue to give to all others. Remember, you don’t always have to be strong, you don’t have to be the fixer at all times. Remember you can be human, you can ask for help, you don’t have to be the one to save yourself at all times.